My husband used to listen to this French song. I didn’t know who sang it. But I definitely associated the music with him since the early days of our relationship. Sometimes I’d hear him out in the kitchen late at night, listening to his music, while I was already trying to go to bed (and often telling him to turn the music down!). Sometimes it was her.
My son found some of my husband’s flash drives, so we were recently going through them. That’s when I found the French music and I learned her name was Francoise Hardy.
She’s beautiful. She has many beautiful songs.
I love “J’ai jeté mon coeur”:
Lyrics translated:
I scattered my heart
I scattered my heart
a bit all over the place.
Now I’m afraid,
I’m afraid, I feel it,
that it no longer knows
how to beat as before,
that it no longer knows
what it means
to love truly.
I scattered my heart
and I repent that.
Pleasure and happiness
often get mixed up.
I wanted to try
everyone at the same time
and I forgot
what it means
to love truly.
The fingers which tremble in his hand,
the often awkward gestures
are already part of the past
when I remained, some endless nights,
thinking and dreaming of you,
the first person I thought I loved.
I scattered my heart
a bit all over the place
Pleasure and happiness
often get mixed up.
Will someone come
to bring it back to me?
Will someone come
whom at last I’ll be able
to truly love?
Teresa Shimogawa 