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Kenneth the Magician

After Kenneth’s funeral, at night, long after everyone who had come to pay their respects had gone home, I remember the kids hanging out in my kitchen. The neighborhood kids were over. A bunch of them ran around as if it were the last gasp of a party. We had hosted many parties that ended…

Marriage

When somebody dies, they tend to get elevated to an untouchable godliness that can only be bestowed upon those who can no longer do anything wrong. Any of their past mistakes have been smoothed over and forgotten; they are remembered fondly and reverently. The bad parts of their lives are mostly erased and not spoken…

The Glasses

Yesterday we came home from Ellie’s tennis lesson and I rushed to the kitchen to re-heat leftovers and boil corn and empty backpacks before the sitter would arrive and I’d be running out of the house to go to my own tennis lesson. There was a sink full of dishes and I could feel the…

Kenneth and Politics

When I started teaching at my current school, they placed me in the reference room of the library. I was hired after the school year started, so they had to create new classes. The principal assured me that he would find me a classroom, but first he had to evict the teacher currently in there.…

The Babysitting Wage Gap

Not quite 12 in this picture, but only 2 years off. What a dork. I started babysitting as soon as I turned 12 years old. I counted down the days until I reached the legal age to be left alone with other people’s kids. It’s ironic that now I don’t even like holding babies, but…

When Life Doesn’t Go As Planned

When my first child was born 10.5 weeks early, I was exiled to a hospital room at the end of the hallway, as far away as possible from the other moms and crying newborns. That was where they sent those of us who would not have our own new babies to press against our bosoms.…

The Road I’m On

Me in Yosemite, 2005. Baby fat, oh boy!  My idea of what my life should look like was very linear before April 2016. I started a career, we bought a house and got married, had children, and then…I don’t know. I didn’t have another destination mapped out after that. I became lost in a deep…